She May Be

she may be
the loudest sleeper
yet i still love her
she maybe be craziest driver
damn, i still love her

she may curse like a gangster
she may burp like a man
she may beat me in everything
from basketball to silly trivias
but damn i still love her

she leaves the water running
and always forgets her keys in the morning
she throws tantrums when she doesn't get it her way
she's up in the middle of the night
but sleeps in the middle of the day

she maybe my greatest weakness
because it seems when she's around
my lungs tighten up
my knees shake like crazy
and being logical is no longer in my vocabulary

Stuffed Empty

I think I have lost it. Like a song on the radio played over and over and over again. It seemed marvelous at first but the more they played it, the more it lost its magic. I have been sitting here dissecting my brain. Looking for motivations. Looking for an inspiration. I have been squeezing the juices of my exhausted brain. Yet nothing.

I guess I have to come clean
There's no way of pretending
I need to see you.
It's driving me crazy, you see
How many more days should I pretend I could last another day without seeing your face
Because I can't. Another minute seems like forever
And the clock struck midnight again and it's becoming a habit
Sleepless nights of senseless and endless ramblings
Dissecting my brain.
Trying to make sense of the uncertainty
Trying to make sense of this recurring dream
And so it goes, my sanity down the drain
Turn off the light now and it's still would be the same

Wish I could take my heart out now
and my brain along with it
I have been damned
And I need to be saved
I have nothing left to offer
Nothing else is left but these three words
"I love you..."

Will you make me feel again?
Will you make me alive again?
Because what use do I have for this heart?
What use do I have for this brain?
My hearts beats for no one else
My brain thinks of no one else
But you...

Have Me

Why do we build mansions for the one we love?
Yet destroy the castles of the one who loves us
I still wonder why you love him
When there could have been someone else loving you better

Are you afraid that you're going to get hurt?
Are you afraid of losing it all?
But the heart is something that you shouldn't be playing with
When it’s not only your that breaks but someone else’s

Am I seeing what I wanted to see in you?
Do I know this person standing right in front of me?
I don't want to think bout it
But the more I look at you
It becomes clearer and clearer
I don't know you at all

Have I put you on a pedestal when I shouldn't have?
We talk about different things
And through that I thought I knew you enough
But do I really know
Or have I been fooled by you?

Why can't we be all just like him?
Why can't we be given a chance to build your castles?
I see you perfectly just the way you are
Yet he finds reasons to destroy all of your beauty

Will it still be worth it?
Now that I know
You might not be the person I thought of
The person I have loved and cherished
Does she even exist at all?
Or is it just mirage
An illusion that I have created

Yet here I am still
Mesmerized
Fixated on your picture
In spite all these complications
I still know the answer
No matter who you maybe
I will love you still
In the end, you will still have me

Knocked Out

knock, knock, knock
you knock me out
it's official
you're the one i can't live without

you're the air that i breathe
you're the fire in my core
i long for each day to have you near
and with you, there is nothing that i fear

i'll brave anything that comes around
with every battle, i stand my ground
but it seems that you're my kryptonite
you win me over without a fight

the sight of you makes me weak
i'm lost for words and cannot speak
you have me in your spell
i'm head over heals for you, can't you tell?

no matter how bad my day goes
it doesn't matter when i have you close
you're my rainbow at the end of a storm
you're the chorus of my favorite song

so is it your eyes?
that left me in daze
is your smile?
that left me floored

or could it be those little things
that no one ever notices
i don't know what it is exactly
no reason at all, quite frankly

i just simply do
no elaborate explanations
i just love you
with no reservations

In Love in The Dark

I walked through the empty corridor
Footsteps resounded from the distance
Shadows moved through the dim lit walkway
I have seen this before
I have felt this before
"Déjà vu," I whispered

I felt my lungs contract
Suddenly, as if I was inside a vacuum
My heart beat in slow motion
Suddenly, as if I was stuck in oblivion

But I was misguided
Because as I saw you standing there
It became clear to me
I have never felt this before
I have never seen someone so amazing before

I had papers in my hand
With scribbles of words you will never read
Because words do not do justice
Even the most eloquently astounding words won't suffice

Love letters could they be?
Sleepless nights I spent in the dark
They played tricks in my mind
Lies I told myself
I will leave everything behind
But as cold air blows through my open window
I seat here typing these words in the shadow...

You are my happy ending
You breathe life to my dying soul
You are the surge of energy to my dead battery
You are the sparkle in my eyes
You are the muscle that makes my face smile
Whether it is wrong or right
You are the love of my life...

But not all we want in this world we get
I played it over and over in my head exactly how I want things to be
But for some reason I cannot bring myself to pursue this
And to ask God for you

I've been in love before but never have I restrained myself
For once, I cannot ask Him to answer my silent prayer
Because you deserve more than that
That no matter how much I love you, it is not enough of an excuse
It is not enough.

If God somehow gives me what my heart silently yearns for
I cannot ask you to make that sacrifice for me.
I cannot make you suffer because of me
And so it remains,
Beneath the facade
I will love you in the dark...

Crossword Puzzle of My Heart

crossword puzzles in my heart
chaos or bliss, i couldn't tell them apart
up or down, i can't seem to figure it out
but i'm falling for you without a doubt

i'm falling deeply as each day passes
i'm more out of place as this feeling progresses
24/7 you're stuck in my brain
my heart is in bliss but still in pain

so these words left unspoken
should i say them now?
or even if i did
would i still be broken somehow?

would you listen?
would you let me in?
or would you close your door?
and tell me just to give in?

would you give me the time of day?
would you stay me with me and never go away?
would you tell your friends about me?
or would you keep all of it in secrecy?

because these stolen glances hurt my eyes
i don't know for how long i can keep my disguise
and i have all these questions hanging overhead
it would be so much better if i have you instead

but they said, "good things come to those who wait."
and with someone as good as you, it's definitely worth the wait
like wine, you get better with time
rushing this through would be such crime

so i'm letting you go in the meantime
but i'm not leaving it all behind
because there is no day that goes by
that i don't find an excuse to keep you in mind

it doesn't mean i'm loving you less
and there's someone else i want to caress
but if God allows, He will make you see
in my prayers is where i keep you and me